life collided

The collision was so sudden,

I couldn’t even scream as I fell;

I woke up to discover,

I’d descended straight into hell.

I’d been there before,

It’s a place I know well;

But to survive at these depths,

You need a diving bell.

Trapped here now,

There is no escape;

With all the bones I’ve broken,

It’s agony each step I take.

Nothing I’ve had so far,

Has helped ease the pain;

It keeps circling back,

In an endless refrain.

I want the ride to be over,

I want off of this trip;

The never ending grind,

Is physically making me sick.

I can’t go to work,

I can’t focus my eyes;

Each day the changes in my bruises,

Brings its own new surprise.

The doctors say they’ll help,

Then they just walk away;

Now I’m left here to grind,

Through one more painful day.

I’m trying so hard,

To escape into sleep;

Even when I’m unconscious,

The tears run down my cheeks.

It’s sad being a testament,

To a system that has failed;

I tried so hard to catch it,

Seems the ship’s already sailed.

Once more they say,

I’m free falling into the abyss;

But I have to tell you,

I’m so damn tired of this.

I don’t know how much more,

My battered spirit can endure;

I’m knotting the end of my rope,

I know that now for sure.

My fingernails are broken,

And my hands are bleeding;

I try to hang onto hope,

But I find that it is fleeting.

What will it take,

For things to change?

I don’t know, no matter what I try

They are all remaining the same.

Leslie Bertrand

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